I have been lacking so much in this blog, that it is near criminal.
I love writing. I love blogging. So why have I put this as well as other numerous things that I love to do, on the fucking backburner?
Specificially this year?
Because, to be honest, my marriage is failing.
There. I said it.
And when one’s marriage is failing, and falling, and pieces are flying, and children are involved, you tend to let things slip away. Including your blogs, and your videos, and your writing, and your enjoyment and your joy and your pieces and parts of everyday life.
This year has sucked. Pretty damn bad. I haven’t had such a shit year, in soooo very long. I should be thankful, but as we all know, when it rains, it pours and I don’t mean a storm of cleaning rain- I mean a storm of shit.
Pretty visual- eh?
I will spare the details. I will spare the insane amount of time that this has gone on. I will spare all that stupid woe is me bullshit.
But I refuse to spare myself anymore. I have to do what I have to do. I Have to go on. And I have to enjoy life again.
I am not going anywhere, I will never let who I am, slip away anymore.
Amy:
There’s something about this year that has royally sucked for almost everybody I know. I’m sorry to hear (read…) that yours has too.
November 18th, 2009 at 3:23 pm
Mari:
Thank you Amy, and welcome to my blog.
All I know is, that when things suck so bad, there is bound to be a better end to it, right? Lol. I at least keep telling myself that.
Hope to see you around more
November 18th, 2009 at 3:57 pm
Vicky:
I KNOW EXACTLY HOW YOU FEEL, MY PROBLEMS ARE OLD BUT THE SAME. I’VE SHOULD HAVE NEVER SAID I DO, YOU WERE THERE, PREGO THAN EVER, I SERIOUSLY STARTED TO RUN OUT OF THERE. I’M SO NOT HAPPY, BUT KEEP IT MOVING. I FEEL SOMETIMES LIKE I NEED TO GO LOOK FOR VICKY, BECAUSE I’VE LOST PARTS OF ME ALONG THE WAY. BUT LIKE YOU, I’M DEFINITELY GOING TO GET IT BACK. HANG IN THERE KIDDO, YOU’RE TOUGH, VERY INTELLIGENT AND TALENTED YOU CAN DO IT.
November 18th, 2009 at 5:49 pm
Vivi:
You gotta do what you gotta do, especially when you’re a mom. Best of luck to you. There’s a sisterhood of support flowing to you, I’m sure. We have to stick together. Blessings
November 19th, 2009 at 8:17 pm